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Friday, May 18, 2012

Drawing Them In - John 3

In reading about the Samaratian woman in John 4, I think it is so neat how you drew her into a conversation. Perhaps you didn't need a drink, but you pleasantly asked for one anyway. You surprised her by even speaking with her. Then informed her of God's desire to give her life-giving water.  You were a mystery and you wanted to draw someone outside the "chosen" people to God.  You didn't opperate in circles of friends; you were alone; you weren't rushed; you were willing to share the gift of Life with her.  You knew her story (no husband -but five husbands) and touched her heart in a way that made her want more.

Oh, Lord, that I may be as eloquent as You in drawing the lost. I've been so moody and snappy lately. It broke my heart when Elise came in the bathroom last night to show me her latest project. Two styrafoam cups. "Look, Mom!  Here's Dad -glad. And here is you -mad."  She was delighted with her project.  But left me pondering is that the way she sees me. I've snapped at her so much lately and haven't "spent" time with her.  Then Betsy has been snapping at me too. :(  I guess I am wearing off on them. I need my rest, can't sleep, can't find my paper journal, I can't even find my Bible that I had yesterday. My house is such a mess. I am worried about my tummy churning and wondering if I am having heart problems as well. Lord, I need you to come to my rescue.  I am tired of fighting and living here. I am tired of the JUNK in my house, waiting for the class room to be done. Maybe we can move Elise into Betsy's room and I can set up the classroom book in there until DH is done upstairs. I am so ready for school to be over!!!  :)  But I am dreading next year. Three children. I know i don't have to teach Michael, but he needs something. He's willing to learn. Happy about school. Elise hates it. Please direct me with her in what to do as I daily come to you. Betsy too.

I need you Jesus.
You are the source of life
I can't be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of You

I need You Jesus, I need You Jesus

My heart is Yours for life
I need Your hand in mine
No one else will do
Lord I put my trust in You

chorus
I need You Jesus to come to my rescue
Where else can I go?
There's no other Name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You

My heart is Yours for life
I need Your hand in mine
No one else will do
Lord I put my trust in You

chorus

I will follow you
This world has nothing for me (I will follow You)

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Do NOT be discouraged....

Woke up several times this morning and thought "rest".  So, I rested and rested and then I heard Joshua 1:9, "Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified. Do not be DISCOURAGED, for the Lord is with you wherever you go."

It is a command... do NOT be discouraged. I thought about it and about the fact that we shouldn't discourage others either, but encourage.  Then I thought about discouragement causes hopelessness and hope deferred makes the heart sick......but  a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. (Proverbs 13:12).

Lord, Thank you. I want to be courageous and not discouraged or discouraging to others.  Help the girls to get it as well. :)

Monday, March 12, 2012

Lead me, Jesus

It seems like I should constantly cry, "Lead me, Jesus." Because I have the tendancy to lead myelf. I guess that's the flesh and spirit war thing.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Holy Spirit

John 20:21-23
21 Jesus said to them again, “Peace to you! As the Father has sent Me,(A) I also send you.”(B) 22 After saying this, He breathed on them(C) and said,[a] “Receive the Holy Spirit.(D) 23 If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained.”(E)

(Lk 6:27-37

Love Your Enemies
27 “But I say to you who listen: Love your enemies, do what is good to those who hate you, 28 bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.29 If anyone hits you on the cheek, offer the other also. And if anyone takes away your coat, don’t hold back your shirt either. 30 Give to everyone who asks you, and from one who takes your things, don’t ask for them back. 31 Just as you want others to do for you, do the same for them. 32 If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them. 33 If you do what is good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners do that. 34 And if you lend to those from whom you expect to receive, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners to be repaid in full. 35 But love your enemies, do what is good, and lend, expecting nothing in return. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High. For He is gracious to the ungrateful and evil. 36 Be merciful, just as your Father also is merciful. 37 “Do not judge, and you will not be judged.(Mt 7:1-5) Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.(mt6:14;28:23-35) 38 Give, and it will be given to you; a good measure—pressed down, shaken together, and running over—will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you.”
Footnotes:
  1. John 20:22 Lit He breathed and said to them

Cross references:


I was lead to read John 20:21-23 (again J).  Jesus filled the apostles with the Holy Spirit? So, if the disciples/apostles (11) received the Holy Spirit prior to Acts, then Acts was for all the other followers/disciples and a refilling, another gift for the 11?  They were filled w/H.S. and began speaking in tongues as the Spirit gave them utterance.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Overwhelmed by love...

Lord,
Thank you for my family, my parents, and for loving me.  My Honey suprised me and took me out to eat last night: yummy and sweet!  How neat to open my present from Mom and Dad -a day early- and find shirts (which I won't buy for myself) and lotion (one that smells like mom and makes me miss her all the more) and a Chick-fill-a COW!!!  Wow!  I told one of the girls last week that I wanted one of those cows, but I didn't need one. :)  Thanks for listening.  I am overwhelmed by your love, support, and friendship. Thank you for everything. I am so blessed to be a part of Your family. I love you!  Help me to live each day for you and as if it were my last. I want to rely on you for everything and not do it all on my own. Help me to become to woman/mom I am meant to be. Help me to train the children and not grow weary.  Help me to take care of myself, so that I can give to them.  I know when I exercise, I have more energy, but I don't know what to do w/my hips bothering me. Please heal them or tell me what to do. (stretch)  Thanks for waking me up and our time alone.  I treasure it, even when I don't want to get up at times.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Humbled



Luke 3

Jesus was baptized in the Jordan River, God was well pleased with Him and lead Him by the spirit into the desert for 40 days where he ate nothing and was tempted by Satan. When Satan tempted Him to turn stones into bread Jesus made reference to Deuteronomy 8:3 that man should not live by bread alone. Later after Jesus spoke to the Samaritan woman at the well, the disciples uged Him to eat. He told them "I have food to eat that you know nothing about."
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Deuteronomy 8

2 Remember how the LORD your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. 3 He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD.  (Luke 4:8)

Should this not lead us to a life of worship and obedience.  We can do nothing of ourselves. Everything is from God. We can not "make" our food without Him; it is He who made everything and He made all that we have. Should we not fear and tremble because our life is in His hands?  Should we not worship and obey Him because He is All Powerful and Worthy of our praise?  Are we such fools as to think we don't need God?
God may I live in such a way, humbled and living on every word that comes from You.

Friday, February 3, 2012

God's Pain

“And the Lord said to Moses, ‘Go, get down! For your people whom you brought out of the land of Egypt have corrupted themselves. . . . They have made themselves a molded calf, and worshiped it and sacrificed to it. . . . I have seen this people, and indeed it is a stiff-necked people! Now therefore, let Me alone, that My wrath may burn hot against them and I may consume them’” (Exodus 32:7-10).
“Then Moses pleaded with the Lord his God, and said: ‘Lord, why does Your wrath burn hot against Your people whom You have brought out of the land of Egypt with great power and with a mighty hand? . . . Turn from Your fierce wrath, and relent from this harm to Your people. . . .’ So the Lord relented from the harm which He said He would do to His people” (verses 11-14).
In reading this passage, many Christians mistakenly attribute more grace and mercy to Moses than to God. They think, "Moses is pleading for great mercy upon Israel, while God is ready to destroy them." Nothing could be further from the truth. The only reason Moses could pray as he did was because He knew God's heart of mercy.
God’s justice demanded that the people be consumed but Moses knew it would pain God too much to destroy His children, so he lifted this plea to God, "I know that Your justice is crying out and these stiff-necked people should be wiped out, but I know You would not be able to stand the pain if You did that. I know Your heart, God, and I know You cannot destroy Israel—because You love her."
The Bible says God "relented", which means He changed His mind about how He would judge Israel. He was not going to destroy them; instead, the people would waste away in the wilderness. Although the people would continue to pain His heart for thirty-eight more years with their unbelief, the Lord would still protect them, lead them, feed them and clothe them to their dying day.
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Double Pain
The first part of God's "double pain" is when we sin in His presence, against His light and love. The sin itself is not what grieves God, however, but the fact that He knows the consequences of our sin. God knows our sin is going to drive us to grief and misery.
The second part of God's "double pain" is that our sin compels Him to keep His Word in judging us. He has to stand by like a loving father and listen to our cries of anguish as He chastens us—all for the purpose of producing godly character in us.
At one time I came to a crisis—to the end of my rope. Slanderous things were being said about me and after this had gone on for some time, I began to remind God of His Word:
  • "A false witness will not go unpunished, and he who speaks lies shall perish" (Proverbs 19:9). 
  • "A liar listens eagerly to a spiteful (destructive) tongue" (17:4).
After some time, I cried out in despair: "Oh, God, how long will You let this go on? The lies keep changing so much, I don't even know what they are from day to day. You are my defender, Lord, and You say You will avenge Your people. But I don't see You working any justice.”
As I thought of all the slander coming against me, I began to think of other beleaguered pastors and servants. There are many righteous people today who are enduring awful trials because evil words are being spoken against them.
"Why, Lord?" I prayed. "Why do You continue allowing Your people to be hurt?”
The Lord answered, "David, I am merciful, longsuffering and slow to anger because it pains Me to mete out My justice. If you could feel My pain, you would never, ever, desire to see My judgment fall. You would understand why I wait so long to bring it down. You know how painful it is to discipline your children. It is the same for Me. It pains Me to chasten those I love!"
 

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Faith

And without faith, it is impossible to please God. because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. *Heb. 11:6

'Trust  Me. Depend on Me, until you depend on Me, you will continue to run in circles. I love you.Trust Me (how?).  Know that I am working everything out. Trust begins in the heart. You just do  it. You know I've taken care of you, know that I love you, now know that I am working everything out.'

Should I teach the anger method? 'It's fine. It is about self-control and discipline.'

I love you.

'I love you. 
I love you with an everlasting love.
I love your quirks, your tendencies.
I love it most when you surrender to Me.

You are to walk by faith and not by sight.
You are to trust and depend on Me.
 I am working everything out for good.
Trust me; I will lead you.'

Saturday, January 28, 2012

alone

Everyone is in bed, Hubby crashed early and we are alone.  I haven't spent hardly anytime with You since Michael's gotten sick.   I feel bad about it. I talk to you some, but not much and then I feel bad about that.  I know you love me but why do I do the things I do. Why do I let everything else crowd out my time with You?  Why don't I talk to you 24/7?  I miss you and I am lonely.  I feel lost when I don't connect with You. Does that make sense?  I feel disconnected and sad.  It's ovulation time too of, so that may be part of it. But I know most of it is missing quiet time with you. 

I am glad in a way the computer is broke. Speak to DH about the TV, cable, electronics. I hate that so much time is wasted on stuff. I am just  as guilty as everyone else. 

I need to go to bed but I don't want to.  It's quiet. : )  

It's always quiet at my sweet single friend's home....comfort her tonight, hold her.  I know she's sad that she doesn't have a family of her own. Please work things out for her and your glory.  Bring the right man into her life, soon.

Search me, oh, Lord. I hate that I haven't talked to you. It bugs me.  Thank you for the time DH and I have had recently. I've missed him too. lol. 

I want to serve you with GLADNESS (Ps 100).  Help me to be a joy to be around and a joy to others. Teach us and help us communicate your love with those around us. 

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Learn of Me

D.Wilkerson
Jesus said, "Come unto Me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn of Me” (Matthew 11:28-29, KJV). Christ tells us very plainly: "Do not attempt to take on a walk with Me until you are at rest in your soul!"
If you do not have this wonderful confidence in what the Word of God says Jesus did for you, His yoke will not be easy or light. On the contrary, you will spend your time striving in the flesh to please God. You will go from hot to cold, living with unnecessary guilt and shame.

I believe the key to this verse lies in the words “learn of me.” Jesus is speaking here of the discipline of learning who He is and what He accomplished on the cross. He is saying, "You must have a knowledge of what I have done for you. Then, once your soul is at rest, you can take on My yoke. So, learn of Me!"

We do not want this kind of discipline. We want to take the easy way! We are like schoolchildren on the playground at recess who do not want to go back into the classroom.
Perhaps today you say, "I'm reading my Bible now and praying a little each day. I'm trying hard to do better!" This is all good, but I assure you that these things will not keep you through the coming storm. It is not enough to try hard, to make promises to God, to strive to be better. Nor is it enough to say, "I'm more diligent than before." No, it is all about going after a revelation of what Jesus did for you at the cross!

Something should cry out in all of us: "Jesus, Your Word says I can live in total rest, peace and security. I don't have to strive in my flesh or be tossed about by guilt or fear. You have set before me the promise of a life at rest, but I don't have that rest. Oh, Lord, I want Your rest with everything that's in me. Teach me by Your Spirit—I want to learn of You."

Monday, January 23, 2012

Give me Jesus

Passage for the year.....

4am

Psalm 100

A Psalm of Thanksgiving.
 1 Make a joyful shout to the LORD, all you lands!                      
 2 Serve the LORD with gladness;                           (be glad He saved, redeemed, loves me)                      
         Come before His presence with singing.              (this makes me want to SING)
 3 Know that the LORD, He is God;                             (KNOW...rest in this knowledge)
         It is He who has made us, and not we ourselves;
         We are His people and the sheep of His pasture.
    
 4 Enter into His gates with thanksgiving,                               (a thankful heart is a happy heart)
         And into His courts with praise.
         Be thankful to Him, and bless His name.                     
 5 For the LORD is good;
         His mercy is everlasting,
         And His truth endures to all generations.              (Awesome!)




Forgive me Lord, for not serving you with gladness. You have woke me with a song of praise many times and I rejoice and am glad in it.  Thank you for the songs and waking me. I've missed that lately. I am thankful that you are my God and I am your child. Your works are awesome and it's neat to see how everything works together and all the beautiful life you've created. May my life be a blessing to You and Your name.

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I was spending time with Elise yesterday while she did her chores, feeding the animals. I looked up to find Betsy toting Michael on her back and making their way towards. me. When they reached me, Michael informed me, "You loosed me!" Betsy filled in the blanks, he couldn't find me in the house where I left him. He was calling for me; so, she offered to help him find me. How sweet! ♥

It blessed me and today it helped me better understand how we bless God when we look to spend time with Him.


Lord, you never loose me but I often wander around and am not looking for You.....forgive me.  Thanks for getting me up early...Michael is up (5:30!)

Thursday, January 19, 2012

murmuring vs enduring

James 1:12 Blessed is the man who endures temptations; for when he has been appproved, he will recieve the crown of life which the Lord as promised to those who love Him.

See notes by Barnes...

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Whom shall I fear?

Oh, No you never let go of me....

Thank you, Lord, that you never let go. No matter what I am going through, you are always here with me.  I am sorry I had a bad attitude last night. How am I ever going to teach the girls not to spout and complain when I myself have problems with it? Lord, help me.  I need to S.A.P. (stop and pray) to find strength and vitallity  and to I also need to see if I need to C.A.R.E. to change my attitude.

Calm?  If not, one of the following robably need to be accomplished:

Accomplishments: Are we stayin on routine? Are the MOST important things getting done on our  "To Do" list in a resonable fashion? REMIND myself that I AM getting something done and what it is.
If someone is sick: my accomplishments are taking care of the sick. There are days wehn not much will be done. That is why we have priorities.

Rest:  Have I gotten off of my feet and sat down lately?
Have I been doing a lot of walking, pacing, wearing myself out even more?
STOP!!!!  Sit or lie down in a quiet place.

Enjoyment: When was the last time we had fun TODAY? 
What would I like to do?  Are the kids asking for a fun activity that can be done now? 
Planning a fun thing for the future can be rewarding.
Take joy in the little things: a husband that is home, kids that want to talk to me, being healthy, paying the bills, ...count my blessings naming each one. Put a smile on and display joy for everyone to see.




Sunday, January 15, 2012

Dream turns into prayer...

I had the strangest dream. I woke up crying about where was God in all of this.  This young, college bound man lost both his parents recently.  He got frustrated with something that went wrong (I can't remember) and was heading home to his empty house. His recently lost his parents was heavy on his mind as well as this other thing that frustrated him. He was full of anger and rage and driving wreckless. He spun around the corner onto his street, going entirely too fast.  The inertia takes him onto the neighbors driveway where he collides into something, and then he blacks out from impacting their house.  The dream goes on and I find that he is with this family and piecing things back together -short term memory loss? He is sitting with the family and listening to the parents talking with their daughter - a girl who he grew up with- about college. He remembers a purple monarch (homeschool curriculum symbol- AOP?). He comments about it. Then he is reminded of his home and  remembers his parents are gone. He starts to wail about them being gone.  The husband puts his arm around his shoulder and walks with him outside. They turn the corner of the house, he sees the damage he had done to their house and the accident comes back. He lifts his hands to his face and see that all his digits are gone except little nubs. He looses it and crys out to God, "WHY.... where are You?"  I woke up crying out (trying to speak) what he was saying.  It was so sad and so real. I prayed for him and wondered if it was happening or had happened or would happen to someone.

I felt like it had happened.

I don't understand, Lord. I am so blessed!  Thank you. Please, help me to teach our children to trust you and reach out to those in need of your love and compassion. Protect us from the evil one and draw us ever nearer to you.

Friday, January 13, 2012

sibling rivalry

Lord, I want the girls to be best of friends....

Why do they have to fight?  I was such a stingy first, born child and at times I can see myself in Betsy. :(  She called Elise, "A spoiled, rotten brat," last night over some hair bands. ?!?  Give me wisdom and the words to say to them.  Deal with them. Bring healing.  Lord, help them to love one another and encourage one another. Help me to be an example of Your love to them.  I often fail....thank You for Your grace. Help me to remember to exercise grace.  Oh, that I knew what to do everytime that they goofed up or purposefully sinned. Thank
\You for guiding me and loving us.

I pray for peace in our house each and everyday, always protect us from the evil one and always guide and direct our steps.  Let us be encouragers and not tearing our loved ones down to build ourselves up.  You look on the heart and man looks on the outward appearance. 

Lord, comfort Elise, give me inpiration and help me in teaching her and playing.  I don't play well. Restore my joy and my youthfulness.  Please keep a song in my heart. Please deal with Betsy for getting onto Elise for singing or being happy.  Please deal with Elise and her attitudes. Let us all want to be more like Jesus.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Clear the Stage - Ross King

Anything I give all my love, is an idol...don't worship the things of this world.

Lord, how often do you wait for us to spend time with You?   We get so busy, distracted and all we need to do is walk and talk with you and sit down and spend some q2t (quality, quiet time). 

John 20: 10-11

Peter and John left the tomb where Jesus was buried, but Mary stayed.  Mary wept. Mary longed for her Lord......Mary was rewarded.

Like Mary, I should wait and not worry that I am the only one waiting, wanting more.  We lead by example and it is good to be caught with Jesus and even better to let go of the trappings of this world.  You have put an emptiness inside us that can only be filled by You. 

True worship is obedience; not being concerned with the things of this world but with the One who created it.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

blahs. . . questions. . . lc

I don't know what to do about church.....how is this going to work?  Who is the leader? -You, I hope; who is the head of LC? Give him the boldness to do what needs to be done and take away the desire to be a "man pleaser" but rather to be  a "God-pleaser".  

I am exhausted today. . . allergies, more than likely. 

Please help me to get my tooth fixed. . . I hope that he won't have to drill again. I hate that. I hope I don't loose my tooth or need a root canal. Please work things out financially. I don't understand why they are charging us $86 when we were told insurance should cover 100%.   How frustrating!

I don't know why I feel like I am in a foul/grumbly mood this morning. :(  Lord, help me. Draw me nearer to you.  May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart, be pleasing to You.  You're my Rock, my Redemer. You're the reason that I sing. Lord, I want to be a blessing in  Your eyes.....every hour and every moment, I want to be a blessing in Your eyes.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Leaving and forgetting

Leave it all behind and follow Jesus with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength...

 That is twice in a week (?) that Psalm 45 was put in front of me: "Forget your own people also, and your father's house" (v. 10)

Lord, I will cling to you and trust you when nothing in this crazy world makes sense. Because I know you are not the author of confusion and I know that I know that I can depend on Y-o-u.

I am so thankful that you are always here and I can always count on You. Listening to Gilead Lane last night (Lonliness) touched my heart. I am so glad you are my "skinless friend"...with me even though I can't see you in the flesh.  I felt bad b/c often times I don't talk to you. I wish I would talk to you throughout my whole day. Hopefully one day, we'll get to that there.

I am excited about what might be happening at Life Church and hesitant at the same time. Lord, direct leaders, don't let them step out of your will...hee hee -that wouldn't be much of a free will, huh?  You know what I mean. Help them to listen to you.  Keep their hearts soft before you and there ears open.  I will trust You.

Lord, I pray for peace in Israel and around the world. I lift up our solders and their families. Draw them near to You and give them peace that passes all their understanding. Meet their needs, Lord.  Have Your way in this election, put the right man/woman in office for President. Open my eyes to see what will happen/be at peace with what you allow to happen and show me how to pray, if  I need to pray differently.  Thank you.

I really don't  see how America could survive another 4 years with Obama at the helm, but
maybe that's your plan. .  .

I am wondering if I should have just let Lynn keep the 3rd grade science. I don't know if I was being stingy, clingy.....she's given us so much. I am tring not to be hurt over her comments about friends. I wonder if she doesn't push people away to keep from being hurt. I don't know. Bless their ministry and provide for them.

I don't know about transitioning and what to do at church. DH want the kids around other kids, but what do we do? So many questions, only You know the answers to.

John 8:28a-29
 "I do nothing on my own but speak just what the Father has taught me. 29 The one who sent me is with me; he has not left me alone, for I always do what pleases him."
35a-36
"Very truly I tell you, everyone who sins is a slave to sin. 35 Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever. 36 So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.."

 47 Whoever belongs to God hears what God says. The reason you do not hear is that you do not belong to God.”  
50a ". I tell you, whoever obeys my word will never see death.”

Jesus, can we have that intimate of a relationship with You and Father?  In my heart I believe we can, but we have to pull away from the distractions and press in closer to you. Let go of what is good and reach for the best.  How hard it is to apply this when we are at home all day with school. Help me to see, know your will.

Father take away Betsy's desire for the computer/goof time and give her (and me) vision for what to replace it will. In Jesus name.

'Trust Me, trust me to  provide everything. Don't worry. ..it is a sin.'

Monday, January 2, 2012

A Day in the Life of the Paddocks: Underneath the Layers of Dust and Dirt: A Story of...

A Day in the Life of the Paddocks: Underneath the Layers of Dust and Dirt: A Story of...: Jesus Jesus Loves the Little Children
Once again....not on my list of things to blog about but I had such a moving experience this morning, I had to process it with you, my readers. Since Glenn and I have taken over the Middle School class, I've started to sit with the kids during Praise and Worship on Sunday mornings. I usually repeat the phrase, "Turn around and put your behind in the chair" more than anything. Many of the kids have a place to call "home," but some do not. Some live on the streets or in cars, with relatives, or in shelters. Most of them come dressed in nice or at the very least clean clothes, but today, God put a precious little man in my path. For privacy purposes, we'll call him, "Sam."

I was sitting in the middle of the front row of chairs when I looked to my right and on the very end of the row was a child sitting by himself. He had a jacket on, and it was zipped all the way up covering half of his face with his head down, avoiding looking at anyone. His clothes were almost filthy. His jeans had dirt all down the front. His shoes were worn and covered in dirt. I wondered when the last time he had a bath might have been. I scooted to the end of the row and said,

"Hi, I'm Morgan. What's your name?" (and stuck out my hand).
"Sam." (and he shook it).
"Well, it's nice to meet you Sam. Would you like to come sit in the middle so you can see better?"
(He shook his head and walked over and sat right next to me even though there were several chairs to choose from.)
"How old are you, Sam?"
"I'm 8."
"Did you come with anyone this morning?"
"No, I came by myself. My older brother usually comes but he isn't here today."
"Oh, So the Rescue Atlanta Kids bus picked you up?"
(He shook his head, yes).

We talked some more and I found out that he likes football and sports,and is in the 2nd grade.
He eventually removed the hood of his jacket to reveal cute little braids, beautiful eye lashes, and an adorable smile. Then unzipped his jacket revealing yet another dirt stained shirt. He was the most adorable, precious little boy. My heart was gripped....

As praise and worship started...He clapped along and eventually started singing the words to Heart of Worship and This is My Desire.....I couldn't sit there and watch him and not DO something. I scooted out the door and ran down to the clothing closet. I grabbed him a long sleeve thermal shirt. When I came back into the sanctuary I said, "Would you like a long sleeve shirt for when its cold?"  He looked up with big eyes and shook his head rapidly and I handed it to him. Another minute passed by and I whispered in his ear.."Do you know what size pants and shoes you wear?" He told me a size 10 pants and a size 4.5 shoes. I ran back to the clothing closet and searched through everything and I couldn't really find what I was looking for but grabbed what I could along with a pair of shoes probably a size too big, but it was all I could find in a matter of minutes. I put them in a bag and ran back to the Sanctuary. I handed them to "Sam" and whispered in his ear again. "I think these shoes are gonna be too big, but keep them because you'll be able to wear them soon.  Next time you are here I will have a pair of shoes for you that fit."  

I sat there with my arm around him and attempted to sing through tears..."This is my desire, to honor You, Lord with all my heart, I worship You. All I have within me, I give You praise, all that I adore is in You. Lord I give You my heart, I give You my soul, I live for You alone, Every breath that I take, every moment I'm awake, Lord have Your way in me." I looked over and the little boy was singing with words with the his hands out, palms upward."

As if that wasn't enough...he started watching the lady next to us who was "Praise Signing" and he started to mimic all of her movements. If I had not had the responsibility of teaching 12 teenagers within minutes...I probably would have completely lost it.  If I had the money, I'd be at Target right now buying this kid a new outfit and pair of shoes. Actually, I promised him a pair of shoes next time I see him, so I'm trusting God will provide the means to do so.  I told Glenn if it wasn't against the law, I'd bring him home.

The first thing Glenn said when we talked after the service is..."Who let's an 8 year old go anywhere alone?"
There are many answers to that question, but what I kept thinking was..."What 8 year old, gets on a bus by himself to go to church across town?"

I read a statistic recently that everyday 13,000 people in Atlanta wake up without a place to call home. 2,500 of those are children.  CHILDREN. 

While I know a main part of my job is fundraising, grant writing, networking, volunteers, etc.......I have a huge passion for the youth and children that come to Rescue Atlanta. Some are choosing, on their own, to come. I pray that we are a safe haven, shelter, and a place where they get the physical items they need, but also all the hugs and love they can stand before they walk out into a very cold, and broken world. We are truly honored to be in this position.

Atlanta is not the only place with this issue. No matter where you are....this is happening on some level. The face of homelessness has changed over the years (I'll blog about that another time). But there is ALWAYS a need. I'm also going to blog soon about how to engage and converse with the homeless (as many people are intimidated or assume much) and also practical ways how you can help the homeless no matter where you are.

Glenn and I have decided that for our class, we are going to do Birthday Blessings. Some kids are in situations where they may not get a birthday party more less a gift. I've collected all their information including their favorite candy and the week of their birthday. The Sunday closest to their birthday, I'll bake them a cake and we are going to give them birthday blessing bags. Each bag will cost a total of $10 and will include a bible and their favorite candy.  If you are looking for a practical way to help a child and would like to sponsor one of our birthday blessings. Please let me know. We have one coming up next Sunday. It's just a little way to make it extra special. If we get enough sponsors, we can extend this to all ages of youth.

Pray for Sam tonight....God knows his real name.....I don't know his situation.  He may have a home or he may be homeless. Based on today, I would think it wasn't a permanent situation or at least one with little supervision. Please pray that he will be surrounded with protection, peace, warmth and the love of The Father. Also pray that he comes back so I can bless him with a better outfit and shoes that fit. And pray for us, as leaders. That we will be a physical, tangible extension of the arms, hands, feet, and heart of Christ. That we would have the knowledge and discernment to best serve those in need.

For His Renown,
Morgan

B-SAP!

Be Still And Pray!


Ps. 9:10 (CEV)
Everyone who honors your name can trust you,  because you are faithful  to all who depend on you. (NKJV) 
And those who know Your name will put their trust in You;  For You, LORD, have not forsaken those who seek You.
Ps. 34
 1 I will bless the LORD at all times;       
 His praise shall continually be in my mouth.
2 My soul shall make its boast in the LORD;
         The humble shall hear of it and be glad.
 3 Oh, magnify the LORD with me,
         And let us exalt His name together.
      
 4 I sought the LORD, and He heard me,
         And delivered me from all my fears.
 5 They looked to Him and were radiant,
         And their faces were not ashamed.
 6 This poor man cried out, and the LORD heard him,        
       And saved him out of all his troubles.
 7 The angel of the LORD encamps all around those who fear Him,
         And delivers them.
      
 8 Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good;
         Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
 9 Oh, fear the LORD, you His saints!
         There is no want to those who fear Him.

10 The young lions lack and suffer hunger;
         But those who seek the LORD shall not lack any good thing.
      
 11 Come, you children, listen to me;
         I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
 12 Who is the man who desires life,
         And loves many days, that he may see good?
 13 Keep your tongue from evil,
         And your lips from speaking deceit.
 14 Depart from evil and do good;
         Seek peace and pursue it.
      
 15 The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous,
         And His ears are open to their cry.
 16 The face of the LORD is against those who do evil,
         To cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.
         7 The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears,
         And delivers them out of all their troubles.
 18 The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart,
         And saves such as have a contrite spirit.
      
 19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
         But the LORD delivers him out of them all.
 20 He guards all his bones;
         Not one of them is broken.
 21 Evil shall slay the wicked,
         And those who hate the righteous shall be condemned.
 22 The LORD redeems the soul of His servants,
         And none of those who trust in Him shall be condemned.


Lord, thank you for waking and wanting to spend time with me. Refresh me. More than anything I want my days to be guided by You.  I commit my life to you anew and ask you to establish my thoughts. Direct this child of yours.  Keep us all from the evil. Help me not to grow weary while doing your work, but to draw nearer to you. ('necklace').
I don't understand why I am having so many problems with my back, Lord. I can't sit this way or that or else my back will hurt. 

I don't know what else to say, I am sad and I don't know why. I want to go home and leave this world behind, but I know there is work still to be done. So many souls still not living for You. So, I will trust You and know that You will carry me through. I don't want to do school, I don't know what to share with the girls.  What would you have me to share?
John 12: 18 - 26
 25 He who loves his life will lose it,
 and he who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life.
26 If anyone serves Me, let him follow Me;
and where I am, there My servant will be also.
If anyone serves Me, him My Father will honor.


 Lord, you are so good to me.
♪♫Surely goodness and mercy will follow ALL the days of my life . . . and I will dwell in the house of the Lord.♫

 Isaiah 58:11
11 The LORD will guide you continually,
      And satisfy your soul in drought,
      And strengthen your bones;
      You shall be like a watered garden,
      And like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail.
       

Jeremiah 9:23-24 (NKJV)

23 Thus says the LORD:

      “ Let not the wise man glory in his wisdom,
      Let not the mighty man glory in his might,
      Nor let the rich man glory in his riches;
       24 But let him who glories glory in this,
      That he understands and knows Me,
      That I am the LORD, exercising lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness in the earth.
      For in these I delight,” says the LORD
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Sunday, January 1, 2012

A New Year, but...

but where do we go from here?

Lord,

I feel so, blah.  I missed our time together this morning, I am sorry. 

I don't know what we are doing and I imagine Dan and Paige are in the same boat.  Lord, what do you want?  Part of me wants to leave 10 Mile behind, but I would miss Kelly and Christy.  It shouldn't matter what other people think or do when you are following God's will.

What is you will in this for our family?  I will trust you to work it all out for your glory and purpose. I can't help but miss what we had in Florida.  Protect those involved in Life Church and bring those who need to be there to LC.  Give us vision and guide us in Your ways.  

I have to go clean up the house, I didn't get it done b/c I helped Elise try to organize her bedroom. Help her, inspire her, to keep it cleaned. Give me direction with guiding Our family. I can't do this without you, unless I want a bigger mess. I hate clutter.

I love you.